Wednesday, November 29, 2006

first fall

*kablag*
minela: "oh my gosh!!!"
*loud crying*


6 months, 3 days, 6 hours and a few minutes after alex was born, it happened -- her first fall.

it was lunch time. hubby was home installing the lights. my nilagang baka just wasn't ready yet, and alex was getting cranky. so i prepared milk and fed her. then she started pushing (read: making uu). we stopped feeding and went on to change her, then i threw out her nappy.

it was getting late for lunch and hubby is gonna be late for work. i checked on my nilagang baka and started preparing for lunch. then it happened. she cried (but not as much as when she got her ears pierced), she was definitely shocked. we tried to calm her down as best as we can. being a good girl that she is she calmed down after a few rocks and kisses. when she stopped crying, as her mommy, i couldn't help but cry. maybe i'm even more shocked than her. i still couldn't shake it off.

she's sleeping now. but her doctor said we should still observe her until tomorrow. so every ten minutes or so, i still check on her. they say, accidents are normal to babies her age. but nothing could ever prepare parents for this kind of shock. long before, i have dreaded that this time will come. now it did, and i'm still in shock.

my brother told me once how i fell off the bed when i was a baby. i was sleeping and he was supposed to be in charge of me. being the young boy that he was, he left me to play outside. then he heard my crying and run to me, put me back to bed, and hoped for me to stop crying. now, i am married and have alex. maybe 25 years from now, alex may be trying to calm down her own little alex from her first fall. sigh! maybe it's just a phase babies (and most specially mommies) have to go through. but i'm really hoping this is not just the first, but also the last.

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

So many times in the recent time we were put to hands of God. We lose passport, there's nothing else to do than pray that it will be picked up by responsible person. We submit visa application, there's nothing else to do than pray that something will make the officer over the counter give out our rightfully claimed visa. Have you noticed that people behind counters are the most powerful people in the world, for sure it's not people like G W Bush or Bill Gates or Osama Bin Laden. It is people behind the counters in embassies, airline check in counters clerk weighing your luggage, church ladies accepting the church wedding application, register ladies checking the Filipino embassy docs, social security system clerk checking your application for parental support. They hold your destiny and all your money and planning in their hands at their own discretion, their decisions are ultimate! And then Alex falls from bed.., it's terrible, it's shocking, it happened and there's nothing to do. We're once again put in hands of God. This time it's not money, it's not planning. Much bigger thing is in stake. That thing is our Thingy, our UU Maker, our Tisai, our most beautiful baby girl in the world. Our incredibly cute and good baby, who we love so much. And we thank God that she stopped crying so quick and she gave us nice big smiles and didn't show fatigue and didn't throw up. We are so thankful to Him, and we have faith that He will keep standing by us.

Anonymous said...

kosa, that's ok.. at least she's already 6 months when she fell... =D mamig was only 3 months when he first fell and i was asleep.. never felt so guilty then.. but now, i guess i'm used to his *untog*, *dapa*, *hulog*... i would sometimes panic at first but as long as he'll be ok after a few hugs and kisses and a prayer.. it will be alright... remember toleds' "amnesia theory"? *hope that made you smile..* =D pwede mo din gayahin yun.. =))

sooner or later you'll be differentiate alex's cry if she's hurting, surprised/shocked, just trying to get your attention then you'll be more relaxed on how to handle things...

=) mwah! miss you! send my regards to matej and kisses to alex... God bless! =)

gfbaby said...

thanks kosa... i told matej about the amnesia theory :)) everything's ok now. but we never leave her on the bed anymore ;) kisses to alex has been sent... same with regards to matej :) hope to see you these coming holidays... cau!

gfbaby said...

thanks my dear hubby. yes, it's all in God's hands. thanks to HIM, everything's ok. :) muah! :*