Thursday, September 03, 2009

mommy aches

slovakia. thousand miles away from home. sigh! away from the things i grew up with. sigh! away from friends and family. sigh! but i never thought being a mommy would bring the biggest sigh of all...

being a mommy to two wonderful kids is both a blessing and a joy. they have brought me so much happiness even amidst all the tantrums. but, it's the things that i couldn't or wouldn't be able to do for them (or give to them) that makes me sad. not in such a strange country with a very difficult language.

* lost in translation pedia/doctor checkups
* no PTA's (and even if they have one i wouldn't be able to participate anyway)
* no graduations or recognition days
* first birthdays can pass in a blur

SIGH!

Friday, January 09, 2009

love means never having to say you're sorry

a friend asked me to update my blog and so here it is...

the title is one of the most famous love quotes of all time. it's from the book love story. although until now, i still don't have a clue what it really means. could it mean:
a. don't do something you'd be sorry about later to the one you love?,
b. don't say it, just be sorry and make up for whatever it is?, or,
c. i don't know yet...


when i was growing up, i used to envy those families who could openly say niceties like "thank you", "i'm sorry", and "i love you" to each other.

well, among these three phrases, "thank you" might be the easiest to say but is usually taken for granted. it is spoken in our home, of course yes. but not saying it doesn't mean the receiver is ungrateful (unless, it is expressed otherwise).

i used to write "i love you" in letters we send to my mom when she was in hongkong. i could even say it over long distance phone calls. but saying it in person is another matter. i can't explain it, but i feel so embarassed saying it. it's like, i don't want to be corny or something. and when it's spoken, there's like an awkwardness-after-effect. don't ask me why, it just is. :D

now "sorry" is very tricky. the more sorry you are, the harder it is to say it. let's face it breaking a piece of china is nothing compared to breaking someone's heart.

but what's my point really? the point is, saying sorry is not the same as being sorry. saying thank you is not the same as showing appreciation. most of all, saying "i love you" is not enough, but it's a start...

nonsense again?! definitely! :))